Starting Fresh. 2011

2011. THE year where I will be entering my 3 Series. What have I achieved for the past decade? To many to list down.. But my best years would be this last 5 years.

What do I wish for the next decade?

Health, Happiness for the family..... Ameen.

Cancelled.

Unforseen circumstances, the weekend trip is cancelled. :(

30 th April 2010

Since BE Tax Form has been submitted earlier, this Friday we will be enjoying

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Sadly, there’s no couple seats @ T.GV 1U. And lately, I’ve been choosing couples seatings. Perhaps I am more loving comfort then caring bout the price with this current growing tummy of mine. But Since G.SC 1U seats are taken up like hot cakes we settle with whatever’s available.

This will be a tight week; perhaps I better start packing or make a packing list for the maid. Friday night ‘ronggeng’ night. Saturday morning shoot to our local holiday destination. What a great way to start my weekend…

P/S I went shopping for maternity pants. Confirmed my tummy have grown. I wore the pants straight from the changing room. Owh so comfortable :P~

Tuesday Blues....

I’m now in my 12th week. My tummy is starting to bulge and I can’t seem to hook my work pants anymore. I’m not sure whether it’s the baby bump or it’s my tummy growing bigger before the baby actually grows in it. All I know I’m not comfortable wearing my usual work clothes, I need some extra room for my tummy. Need to shop but lazy to shop.

Next week is the 2nd checkup. A bit nervous & worried, I hope the baby is fine. The mommy has been eating like nobodies business. Sometimes eating unhealthy food (chips) which actually helps ease my nauseous a lil bit. Not to mention expensive foods as well, pasta, roast chicken, fast food. Yikes.

On a lighter note, I’ve submitted my taxes this morning. This time around the company cut sufficient amount of PCB, and I paid extra by RM30. Yeay for me, as I was able to submit the form 3 days before the dateline. I don’t want to wake up 3am in the morning again to submit my tax. Never ever.

I’m looking forward for the weekend! Bercanda tepi pantai with family…

..moving on..

Almost 6 months I've abandon this blog. Loads of thinking to do, decisions to make, obstacles to manouver. Not to mention the miscarriage I went thru.I wanted to deny and think that everything will be okay. But when the blood test confirms it, I just felt like a part of me just died.

It didnt take that long to recover. Family and friends were around.And I wanted to move ahead. I am grateful with what I already have. But deep inside, I wish I was still carrying 'you' because than tomorrow it would be 31weeks...

But everything happens for a reason. Your sibling, made it thru.. Its already in its 11th week. Quite a long way to go.. but slowly and surely we hope to see a new addition to the family in November...

Lets pray, this pregnancy will go tru smoothly..

GoodBye.

Dear sweetheart.

We got the happy news on 11/10/2009 while mama was in the hospital. Your dad was in a daze but excited with the news.

I saw your heartbeat on 26/10/2009 . I smiled to myself when I saw ur tiny heartbeat on the screen. Mama was actually warded for the 3rd time.

October month was a stress month for me and your Abah. Mama decided to go for surgery on 30/10/2009.

Mama and Abah went to check on you on 9/11/2009 , but Mama sensed something is wrong . And that sense was confirmed went we couldn't find your heartbeat. My heart sank. Mama took blood test to confirm doctor's suspicion.

Came back to hospital 2 days after that. Went in the morning to give some blood sample and came back to the hospital in the afternoon. The blood test confirm that you are no longer growing inside my tummy. Mama didn't know what to feel there and then.

On 12/11/2009 , some spotting was seen.

On 13/11/2009, more blood came out and felt like a period.

On 14/11/2009, 3:00pm, Mama felt pain that was excrutiating and gave Abah the signal that Mama wants to go home. Mama went straight to the bathroom and sat there with the shower head running. 3:30pm, sweetie you came out at 8 weeks . Mama broke down and cried sayang...

Your Abah was there, and was strong for Mama.

We love you, Goodbye Love..

Depressed?

Takda mood nak update. A wee bit depressed. Yesterday was in the Apartment alone when the tremors happend. Got me kelam kabut as I was in the bathroom conditioning my hair when it happened.

No need la to story what happen after that, I just when downstair with my unwashed hair.

Had a thought to myself,bila nak pindah ni?